It's 4am, I'm waking up to your perfume. Don't get up, I'll get through on my own. I don't know I'm home or I've lost my way into your room. I'm spiralling into my doom. I'm feeling half-alive but I know one day you and I will be free.

I know I'm practically insane to be awake at this time. Practically 4am. Like in half-alive by Secondhand Serenade. I'm ever so insane. My phone's pretty much down again with the 'I cannot detect your SIM card' look being cast upon me. I love 2009 pretty much, minus all the school drama I have to face. I know it's awfully dumb to be awake at such a moment when there's school in like what say, 4 hours. Me, being awake now and not sleeping would so increase the chances of me sleeping through lessons and all. But I think I hardly care now. All I ever wanted is you. But you're pretty much, difficult to grab hold onto and associate with. I just need more time a day. Time is all i need for now. Chinese Os are nearing already. I feel the pressure now and can't wait for it to be over. But somehow, I feel like not taking it. The thought of not being able to get distinction scares me already. I know, it's like i'm thinking too much and all. But, is distinction really just an arm's length away from me? Gosh, I sound awfully pessimistic now. When I sound overly optimistic most of the time. I'll try to work my best and hardest under pressure to produce results you never thought I was capable of achieving and be like an exquisite hand-made tea cup. I find myself awfully dumb having so much complains. Complains that i tell to G and all. Oh, and G, if you see this, you're so supposed to demoralise me more for Chinese. I will so prove you wrong! And please, try your best for Chinese. All I can do is just pass you all my notes after I'm over and done with it this year.

Js, for you, I'll definitely succeed.
I still feel like skipping school tomorrow.

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