It's 4am, I'm waking up to your perfume. Don't get up, I'll get through on my own. I don't know I'm home or I've lost my way into your room. I'm spiralling into my doom. I'm feeling half-alive but I know one day you and I will be free.

I know I'm practically insane to be awake at this time. Practically 4am. Like in half-alive by Secondhand Serenade. I'm ever so insane. My phone's pretty much down again with the 'I cannot detect your SIM card' look being cast upon me. I love 2009 pretty much, minus all the school drama I have to face. I know it's awfully dumb to be awake at such a moment when there's school in like what say, 4 hours. Me, being awake now and not sleeping would so increase the chances of me sleeping through lessons and all. But I think I hardly care now. All I ever wanted is you. But you're pretty much, difficult to grab hold onto and associate with. I just need more time a day. Time is all i need for now. Chinese Os are nearing already. I feel the pressure now and can't wait for it to be over. But somehow, I feel like not taking it. The thought of not being able to get distinction scares me already. I know, it's like i'm thinking too much and all. But, is distinction really just an arm's length away from me? Gosh, I sound awfully pessimistic now. When I sound overly optimistic most of the time. I'll try to work my best and hardest under pressure to produce results you never thought I was capable of achieving and be like an exquisite hand-made tea cup. I find myself awfully dumb having so much complains. Complains that i tell to G and all. Oh, and G, if you see this, you're so supposed to demoralise me more for Chinese. I will so prove you wrong! And please, try your best for Chinese. All I can do is just pass you all my notes after I'm over and done with it this year.

Js, for you, I'll definitely succeed.
I still feel like skipping school tomorrow.

Labels: 2009, charmaine, G, jiehui, Johann, Js, O Levels, school

I'm sad.
The mask was out of stock.
I dread school.
I'm cold now.
Zac Efronnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!
I should finish reading my book soon.
Faster reply already! And faster recover.
I want to see you play again.
I'm still brooding over finals.
Why Chinese Os coming so soon!

Bye, love, Js

Labels: 2009, basketball, charmaine, finals, jiehui, Johann, Js, O Levels, Zac Efron

Gosh, i almost died watching the magic show. I shall so sleep early today, maybe.

Bye, loves.
I miss basketball matches.

Labels: 2009, basketball, charmaine, jiehui, Johann, Js

Having chanced upon Yiting's journal (okay, so she showed me her new url), it made me think, alot and hard, as though my brain juices were finally all squeezed, about the past year. Okay, it's just the mere 4 months and 2 days that passed including today.
I was once, so ever clueless about sports and never thought of being physically involved in one. Much less to say that I've taken on the duties of a PE rep and also the overall-in-charge for the class tee. My sense of achievements for the mere months.
I never considered myself as athletic and should i say, boy-insane. But somehow, having came in contact with Yiting, my life changed. It changed for both better and worst. HAHA. Worst is that, I'm utterly boy-insane now, especially basketball boys. Better is that, I widened my scope of friends and also widened my knowledge and somehow, losing some to my favourite Dumb Blonde.
Our group's self-initiated project, another highlight, made our class somehow bonded with each other more than ever. Maybe, it's partly due to the fact that we're all gonna be leaving each other soon, in a matter of 7 months and probably won't even get a chance to meet each other again.
Another thing, is that 4C's Mr Benny Lim is leaving us for his new job, a social worker. This really had a huge impact on us as we really enjoyed the time we had with him and also at his wedding. We, somehow, managed to make him cry, laugh and scold us. But he still treated us as his 'babies'. Gosh, I feel as though I'm super emotional right now.
And then, there's all the basketball thing. Where I realised Johann, Johncelin and all. I'm rather reluctant to list all out while using my phone to blog. The worst news I've ever heard this year is Johann, having fractured his leg(?). I realised that basketball is a very captivating sport, minus all the hairy legs and sweaty bodies. At least it captivates me.
Well basketball made me realise how un-athletic I am and how athletic I should be. I should really start playing sports this year. For a start, I understand how the game goes already, my first big step out. I shall watch G's matches when he plays and all. I actually missed track and field this year. How could I!
Gosh gosh I don't know what to write already. Well. I shall type the rest another time.

Labels: 2009, basketball, charmaine, jiehui, Johann, Js, love, pictures, school

I need you, to make me laugh/smile now.
My mood is going downhill.
I'm not taking my dinner for all the right reasons.
I want london right now.
I want to learn how to play basketball.
I want to take up tae kwon do.
I must learn to self-defence right now.

Bye, Js

Labels: 2009, basketball, charmaine, jiehui, Js, love, Tae kwon do

Are you smiling?
Yes, you just made me smile.

When is the last time you met someone new?
UH, I meet new people all the time since i don't know them at all.

What is irritating you now?
J BEING ON CRUTCHES.

When did you last eat pizza?
JUST

Do you drink beer?
NO

Do you have any friends who are famous?
No

Are you any friends good at poker?
I think they are, my judgement might be bad.

What do you want?
I WANT J TO GET ALL WELL AND PLAY BASKETBALL AGAIN!

Are you tired?
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

Last spoken words you heard?
*ponders*

Have you ever kissed anyone named John?
Noooooooooo

What is your favorite thing in your room?
TOYS, named after Js and G and NH.

Pepsi or Coke?
Pepsi.

Did you ever throw up?
Yes, just last year.

Did you ever throw up while kissing someone?
No.

Do you enjoy piercings and tattoos?
Yes, maybe more of tattoos than piercings.

Taco Bell or McDonald’s?
Macs, *thinks of Ronald instantly*

Are you restless?
Kinda.

Is your computer a laptop?
NO

Are you allowed to stay up later than 11pm on a weeknight?
No, my parent's will pester me to sleep.

Want to be a princess?
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS, But i'm not super girly.

Do you believe dreams come true?
Kinda, Sorta.

Last song you heard?
Time for Me to Fly.

Do you like Batman?
Kinda.

Who is in the room with you?
Me and my brother's pillow.

What are you wearing on your feet?
Nothing you can see.

What is your favorite pair of shoes?
My school shoes. :D HAHA

Who was the last person you told you loved them?
GOSH, I HAVE NO CLUE.

What was the last thing you ate?
PIZZAAAAAAAAAAAAA

What were you doing before this?
Texting/IMing

What is the closest item near you that is blue?
Another computer mouse.

What messaging service do you use?
Starhub

What is your favorite website?
Friendster to check on sth.

Whos house did you go to last night?
Other than mine is Wf's.

What do you wear more, jeans or sweatpants?
Jeans

What is the last movie you watched?
Confessions of a Shopaholic!

What do you currently hear right now?
She'd Be Loved.

When did you last buy a new pair of pants?
UH, Starting of the year.

When did you last take a shower?
This morning.

Wheres your favorite place to be?
LONDONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN, okay, place is like under the stars on an open field. :/

Ever been to QuizPox.com?
WHAT IS THAT?

Where is your mom?
@ BBQ

Where do you sleep?
@ HOME.

Where do you shop the most?
I hardly shopped this year. :(

Where did you get the shirt you’re wearing?
Thailand.

Coach Purse or NFL game tickets?
COACH PURSE.

Where was your default picture taken?
Well assuming this is Blogger's profile page, it's Japanese Gardens

Why did you pick your background?
It's just random photo luh!

Are you happy with where you are?
YES!

Is cheating ever ok?
NO

Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Have you ever talked about marriage with someone before?
Kinda/

Do you want someone you can’t have?
Kinda.

Do you believe love at first sight exists?
YES, I CAN'T POSSIBLY SAY NO, PEOPLE WOULD KILL ME FOR THAT.

Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?
YESSSSSSSSSSSS!

Do you believe that you can change someone?
I HAVE THE ABILITY TO.

Would you ever consider getting engaged or married right now?
I'm kinda young now huh.


SIX LASTS:
Last beverage: F&N ORANGE
Last phone call: DANIELLE
Last Word spoken: OKAY
Last e-mail: FACEBOOK
Last annoyance: DB
Last text message: G

FIVE YOU EVERS:
Dated someone twice: No, i only did once.
Kissed someone & regretted it?: NO
Lost someone special?: Kinda, depends on how you see it.
Been depressed: Yes kinda, maybe not
Gone skinny dipping: No, i don't think so. But then again, i may have when i was young.

Labels: 2009, G, jiehui, Johann, Js, love, quiz, wanfen

1] How did your day start off?
Awesome, i saw Johann's reply! :D *grins ear to ear*

2] When’s the next time you will see the person you like?
UH, there's one i might see on thursday and the rest will be like eons later.

3] When’s the next time you will see the person who absolutely takes your breath away?
UH, there's one i might see on thursday and the rest will be like eons later.

4] Are you waiting for something?
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

5] Last text message you received?
Gaddiel, "*can't remember contents*"

6] Last friendster message you received?
GOSH, I SHALL KEEP MY MOUTH SHUT ABOUT THIS!

7] Does anyone hate you?
If they do, i don't care.

8] Where are your parents?
@ some BBQ

9] Who texted you the most today?
Wanfen, dumb blonde.

10] Are you happy with life?
It's still okay if J replies.

11] Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
YES, I CAN SO SPEED READ!

12] Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Yes, cause yes lorh!

13] Could you cry right now?
Yes, if you tell me all the details about why J has a fracture and all.

14] Are you a jealous person?
YES! I guess at least.

15] If you could have one person with you right now, who would it be?
JJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJ.

16] Do you miss anyone?
Js, and all. :D

17] Do you get 8 hours of sleep everyday?
Not really, i'm more like deprived of sleep now. :(

18] Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, WAYYYYYYYYYYYY NO.

19] Is there anyone who understands your relationship status?
Is it so difficult to understand?

20] Is there something you always wear?
Huh.. my watch? Eh no wait I change watches from time to time..

21] Have you ever thought about converting your religion?
NO.

22] What are you going to do after this?
Dig for english notes, prolly.

23] How’s the weather today?
WARM AND SUPER UNPREDICTABLE!!!!!!!!!!!

24] Is it spring break?
NOOOOOOOOOO, there's only one damn season. :(

25] What time is it?
8.09pm

26] Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now?
*no comments*

27] When’s the next time you’ll see your closest friends?
Tomorrow when we take prelims all together in the hall *teeth chattering*

28] What were you doing this morning at 7am?
Sleepinggggggggggggggggggggg.

29] What radio station do you listen to the most?
I don’t listen to radio stations.

30] Where is your father?
@ BBQ

31] What are you listening to?
Cheated Hearts.

32] Is there anything that you are craving right now?
SLEEP

33] In the past 72 hours have you been under the influence?
Influence of DBs considered?

34] What do you need to be doing right now?
MUGGING.

35] Who do you hate?
UUUUUUUUh, Hatred = BAD

36] What do you wear to bed?
Shirt and shorts.

37] Has anyone got on your nerves lately?
YES.

38] Do you think you’ll be married in 10 years?
Most probably, highly likely.

39] What were you doing at 6pm Saturday night?
Coming home from mugging.

40] Do you know anyone with the same name as you?
YES and i thought my name was uncommon. But they are both so ever common.

41] Do you text during class?
YES, although i'm not supposed to. *snickers*

42] Do you like your significant other’s friends?
Kinda have no response to it.

43] Who is the weirdest kid in your period 5 class?
Recess = Study, so where got weird people other than myself?

44] How do you like your popcorn?
Sweet.

45] Do you get along with your significant other’s siblings?
Kinda have no response to it. Refer to 42.

46] What about their parents?
Refer to 42.

47] Do you shop at Hollister?
NOOOOOOOOOO, HOW CAN RIGHT!

48] What about TOPSHOP?
YES, i kinda get things from there.

49] Has your significant other ever hit you?
Refer to 42 before i start shouting and screaming!

50] What feeling do you have right now?
I'm dead-beat.

Labels: 2009, jiehui, Johann, Js, love, quiz, wanfen

Tagged by Dione :D
10 Are Yous
1. Are you single - Yes.
2. Are you happy - Only if i see Js, i guess. :/
3. Are you bored - Not really. But yes, according to DB.
4. Are you fair - Kinda.
5. Are you Italian - No.
6. Are you intelligent - YES, i'm so super intelligent!
7. Are you honest - I'm very super extra-ordinarily honest. :D
8. Are you nice - I'm very super extra-ordinarily nice. :D
9. Are you Irish - Nope.
10. Are you Asian - Yes.

10 Facts
1. Name : See Jiahui Charmaine
2. Nick: Smiley Stalker, Charmy (from yt), jiahui (guy name), Nerd (from Gaddiel)
3. Birth place: Singapore, Singapore, Singapore.
4. Hair colour: A lil' brown..
5. Natural Hair style: Kinda straight, I guess.
6. Eye colour: Brownnnnnnnnnnnnnn
7. Birthday: 9 February 1993. :D
8. Mood: Exhausted, There's prelims tomorrow. :(
9. Favourite colour: No preference.
10. One place you want to visit: LONDON LONDON LONDON!

10 things about my love life
1. Have you ever been in love: Yeah.
2. Do you believe in love at first sight: I can't possibly say no to this, cause i love at first right too many people/things.
3. Do you currently have a crush - YeaNay
4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally - As in?
5. Have you ever broken someone's heart - I guess so?
6. Have you ever have your heart broken - Not really.
7. Have you ever liked someone but never told them - Gosh, yes. This is so embarrassing!
8. Are you afraid of commitment - Guess not, I'm very committed. :D
9. The last person you hugged - UH, i think it's Peisi?
10. Who was the last person you said I love you to - Dioneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

10 This or That
1. Love or Lust - Love.
2. Hard liquor or beer - Hard liquor?
3. Cat or Dog - DOGS, I so anti-cats!
4. A few best friends or any regular friends - BEST FRIENDS! BFF yknow!
5. Creamy or Crunchy - I don't know. I like both.
6. Pencil or Pen - Pen.
7. Wild night out or Romantic Night in - Depends but I think both are good.
8. Money or Happiness - Happiness :D
9. Night or Day - Depends. But i like night more leh.
10. IM or phone - BOTHHHHHHHHHHHH

10 Have you ever
1. Been caught sneaking out - I so do not sneak out.
2. Seen a polar bear - The zoo has like I don't know how many, DUHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
3. Done something you regret - Yessssssssssssssss. :(
4. Bungee jumped - NO WAY, unless there's someone jumping with me.
5. Eaten food that fell on the floor - Nay!
6. Finish entire jaw breaker - ?
7. Been caught naked - No, unless you're talking about eons ago.
8. Wanted an ex gf/bf back - Not really, i think it's dumb.
9. Cried because you lost a pet - Nay.
10. Wanted to disappear - Occasionally

10 preferences in a partner
1. Smile or Eyes - How, I like both.
2. Light hair or Dark hair - Anything, i kinda like caucasians!
3. Hugs or Kisses - Uh, I guess, both?
4. Shorter or Taller - TALLERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
5. Intelligent or Attraction - BEST OF BOTH WORLDS.
6. Topman or Zara - BOTH ALSO SUPER NICE CAN.
7. Funny or Serious - MORE FUNNY BUT ALSO SERIOUS. I'M CONTRADICTING MYSELF.
8. Older or Younger - OLDER
9. Outgoing or Quiet - OUTGOING
10. Sweet or Bad - SWEET

10 Have yous
1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd - Yesyesyes.
2. Ever talked on the phone for more than 1 hour - Gosh, of course, i'm sucha talker.
3. Ever walked on hands - I can't even balance on my legs how to do the otherwise?
4. Ever been to a rock concert - Nay. :(
5. Ever been in a cheerleading team - Unless you count those with yiting.
6. Ever been in a dance team - Yes, for some performance.
7. Ever been in a sports team - I want to!
8. Ever been in a drama play - Nay.
9. Ever owned a BMW/Mercedes Benz/Escalade/Hummer/Bentley - I want! But i'm not even legal yet.
10. Ever been in a rap video - Nayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

10 Lasts
1. Last phone call you made - Last night.
2. Last person you hugged - Gosh, my toy?
3. Last person you hung out with - Dumb Blonde and Ting as a lightbulb, a very bright one.
4. Last person you worked for - I hardly lift my finger.
5. Last person you talked to - Dumb Blonde.
6. Last person you IM - Yiting.
7. Last person you texted - Gaddiel.
8. Last person you went movie with - Yiting, Whaiee, Rhoda, Dumb Blonde.
9. Last person/things you missed - Js, HAHAHA
10. Last website visited - Facebook
Tag 10 people to do this:
WF
YT
KF
PS
RX
WE
i dont know who else.
Js. HAHAHAHHAAH.

Labels: 2009, charmaine, dione, G, jiehui, Johann, Js, love, prelim, quiz, wanfen, whaiee

I LOVE Js.

But i still hate my bruise. I actually have a love/hate relationship with it.

Labels: 2009, jiehui, Johann, Js

Happy 16th birthday, my lovely nonsenseboyy!

Didn't went to catch the national track and field yet. Despite it being like the time i saw jiehui luh. LOL. Anyway, i've been going, or should i say, just started going for night study! Haha, to fulfil my anglo-chinese junior college goal, i'll study super super hard. :D i know, i'm getting overly geeky. :( shall sleep already. My memory is so failing me nowadays. I totally forgot when's _'s birthday can. Okay, forget it, i remembered already.

ACJC, HERE I COME!

Labels: 2009, anglo-chinese junior college, jiehui, O Levels, track and field